so ive been surfing the web a lot tonight (drinking a beer and watching man vs. wild/foo fighters concert and waiting for sarah and derek to come over; sleepy and trying not to go to sleep since its been so long since ive seen both.) and ive had a little push of inspiration. i realize that other people, when they are bored, they actually do something. its an amazing concept. i feel like i am busy a lot of the time and it is hard for me to start projects. i also realize that there are lots of people out there who not only work but also have children or other obligations and still manage to do things.
it seems ridiculous that i have all this time on my hands and i havent done anything that is worthwhile. im probably one of the few people who is actually super addicted to reading and am sort of a book junkie. when i was in grade school i used to get grounded a lot by my parents; not because i was sneaking out or yelled at my parents but instead it was because my mom would find me holed up under my blanket at 3 in the morning with a thick book when i was supposed to sleeping. it was unusual behavior for someone in the 4th grade. another word for it: nerdo. totally and utterly nerdo. my addiction is getting in the way of me being motivated. i need to stop going to bed early so that i can finish a book and start spending an hour doing something real.
anyway, that was a really long winded way to say that i really need to get back on the track to doing real, concrete things. tomorrow im going to go to the oregon art supply and actually use the gift certificate that the girls from westmoreland gave me for christmas two years ago. i am in serious need of some canvases! and maybe some white oil paints...i have a project in mind and i really need to start working on it because when i painted that portrait for stu's parents of their dogs it took me like 6 months. and it was crap. and stu's dad takes it out every holiday when their whole family is there and i get all embarrassed because i didnt have enough time to do it right. anyway. im rambling because im bored and cant read right now and have no canvases.
you know reading is an addiction when:
*you have 6 bookshelves in your house and still have books in boxes in the basement
*you go to bed at like 8:30 and dont go to sleep until 1. you may be super tired in the morning but hey! at least you finished that book you've already read 3 times.
*when all you want for christmas are gift certificates for smith family
*its friday night and you seriously consider ditching your friends for curling up with a book
*your idea of making it big and having lots of money and living your dream is "who cares what the house looks like, i want a library room with one of those ladders on wheels to get to the tallest shelf!"
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